Monday, October 30, 2006 Y
*headache*
there's a lot of things in my mind rite now. everythings jumbled up together and that's what gives me a real headache. i feel that i've got a lot of things waiting for me, but somehow, im not doing much to lessen the burden.
*confused*
first up, the external leadership camp this friday. i'm really lost. i dunnoe whether i should go for it anot. dun get me wrong. im dying to go for the camp. but when i told my parents bout it, both were nagging bout me going. they were saying sumtink like, "tak reti raya ke". and were saying that im too active and too social. [sigh] been nagging that i've been coming home late, and pls eh, its not that i loiter ard the s'pore or sumtink. i'm like spending my tyme in that sch lah. mummy, daddy, i just wish you understand what im going thru now. i didnt asked to be the president and i've never ever dream to become the president, but mum, dad, its already my responsibility. i dont regret, really. infact, it have been a great journey for me. i've learned a lot of things and i've gained a lot of experience thruout my journey in BL. it let me see things that i've never seen before. and it taught me a lot of things which i dont think many ppl would understands. its been a hard time. but im trying my best. i promise i wont give up. im going to climb all the way up. i dont ask much. pls understood me. and pls stop comparing myself to other ppl. i am me. i am just myself.
aft that, comes the sgem competition. urghh. another headache. i am the project manager and the competition will be next wed, 8 november, but till this seconds, we are not that prepared yet. i mean, yes, we have our scripts and role and everything. but the props havent been done at all! and i know time is really not being kind on us. i know everone's busy, but halooo, pls dont let me die alone. i need help. i have a lot of things too, be it at home or sch, but still, im trying my best to do what i can for mic. like i said before, i love mic studio, as much as i love BL. so whenever im being in-charge for a particular project, i'll give my only best for it. pls eh, kita tak pilih kasih okay.
is it hard to be understood?
i dont ask much. i just want to be understood. maybe its not you who dont understands me, maybe its the world who doesnt understands myself.
am i pampered? yes, i am. and pls pampered me more.
thanks.
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