*headache*

there's a lot of things in my mind rite now. everythings jumbled up together and that's what gives me a real headache. i feel that i've got a lot of things waiting for me, but somehow, im not doing much to lessen the burden.

*confused*

first up, the external leadership camp this friday. i'm really lost. i dunnoe whether i should go for it anot. dun get me wrong. im dying to go for the camp. but when i told my parents bout it, both were nagging bout me going. they were saying sumtink like, "tak reti raya ke". and were saying that im too active and too social. [sigh] been nagging that i've been coming home late, and pls eh, its not that i loiter ard the s'pore or sumtink. i'm like spending my tyme in that sch lah. mummy, daddy, i just wish you understand what im going thru now. i didnt asked to be the president and i've never ever dream to become the president, but mum, dad, its already my responsibility. i dont regret, really. infact, it have been a great journey for me. i've learned a lot of things and i've gained a lot of experience thruout my journey in BL. it let me see things that i've never seen before. and it taught me a lot of things which i dont think many ppl would understands. its been a hard time. but im trying my best. i promise i wont give up. im going to climb all the way up. i dont ask much. pls understood me. and pls stop comparing myself to other ppl. i am me. i am just myself.


aft that, comes the sgem competition. urghh. another headache. i am the project manager and the competition will be next wed, 8 november, but till this seconds, we are not that prepared yet. i mean, yes, we have our scripts and role and everything. but the props havent been done at all! and i know time is really not being kind on us. i know everone's busy, but halooo, pls dont let me die alone. i need help. i have a lot of things too, be it at home or sch, but still, im trying my best to do what i can for mic. like i said before, i love mic studio, as much as i love BL. so whenever im being in-charge for a particular project, i'll give my only best for it. pls eh, kita tak pilih kasih okay.

is it hard to be understood?

i dont ask much. i just want to be understood. maybe its not you who dont understands me, maybe its the world who doesnt understands myself.

am i pampered? yes, i am. and pls pampered me more. thanks.

Wow. What a day today! Finally, its Accounting Day! A day of tiredness but filled with so much fun! Okay, went out from the house at 6.15am and met up with Dee at cck at 6.30am. Reached Bishan at about 7am. We were suppose to report by 7.45am and since we're early, me and Dee went for breakfast. Saw some of the BL along the way and they were having breakfast too. Minutes later, Rina, Trish and Kelly came to Mac too and joined us.

By 7.40am, me and Dee went off to school to open up the cca room as the key is with me. Reached sch and saw that some of the secondary sch students have actually arrived. Waited for the rest to come and by 8.40am, the game masters went off to set up the stations.

Everything is manageble. No probs or anything. Tho at tymes, there were like 2 grps per stations, but still it went on fine. Finish everything by 12.30pm and then we were given a McDonald's lunch. Not much. Fillet o'fish and hashbrown only. And here comes the fun part! Read on..........

Was eating my burger when I over-heard Dee talking to one of the junior. I think it was Liana. Dee was saying something like, "why not we go watched movie while waiting for the next meeting to start which is like at 3.30pm...?" I turned and looked at Dee and I said, "I heard you, Dee.." And she was giggling and saying, "okay..sorry..didnt know I said it too loud.." And you know what I told her..? "Oh, its okay... I was just about to tell you to include me in...!" Haha. And we both started laughing. Then some of the juniors heard us and was like, "hey why not...lets go...." and thanks lah eh, I was over-excited by the response that it encourage me more to watch it. And by coincidence, Zuoyi passed me the straits time and without realised, I was like flipping thru to the movie page. Looked thru and saw that J8 are showing Death Note at 1.20pm. And when I looked at the watched it was 1.05pm. Almost tot it was impossible to make it, but when I saw the excitement faces around me, my heart told me to go for it. And. So. We. Did. Haha. I was practically persuading everyone to join in and I managed to get 15 BL with me to watch the movie! Out of 25! Its more than half! Yesza!

It was a mixed feeling I have when we left the school. Somehow part of me was saying that we shouldn't be doing this coz we might be late for the meeting, BUT the other half of me was so excited coz its very rare to get to bond together this way. Whatsmore with the Exco and juniors together. A golden opportunity! Infact, we have never did this before in BL. I mean like going out for a movie in big groups. Pluz juniors and seniors together. I feel a sense of satisfaction!

The movie have just began when we entered. It was cool, really. But I didnt know that the duration was 2 hours and 15 mins. Oh-oh. Yes, which means it ends at 3.40pm when our meeting suppose to start at 3.30pm! You can imagine how freak I was. Running all the way out when I realiased it was already 3.35pm. Took a Cab from J8 to sch! Haha. Yes, and it was like only $2.60 from J8 to the school.

When me, Dee, Kit and C.T reached the Audi, we can feel ALL eyes were on us. Everyone was seated quietly and the speaker was already there! Worse of all, Mrs Low was there too! Argghhh! Told you, she looked at us, esp me, with a very angry face. When she saw us came in, she gave us this stare and point at her watch. And she just said 3 words. "You are LATE." Tell you, 3 words, but it consist of 3000 meanings. I was so guilty that I didnt even dare to look at her. And worse, the other 11 of them havent reached sch yet, coz they continue to watch the movie till it ends! Argh! Was so panic and worried sick that I actually turned white. Coz I know I'm DEAD. President, together with other exco, went to watch a movie and came late for general meeting and having to make the invited speaker and the rest of the BL waited. So, so totally DEAD, I told myself.

After the meeting, which is like forever, Mrs Low told us, "The rest can go, but I want to see the Exco." Dead man. Trouble. We were giving each other this look and was so freakingly scared. But when she saw us, she just told us some stuff bout the camps. She didnt meantion anything bout the late coming or the movie or the wateva so. Whewww....!!!!! Thank-God!!

And so, I really feel a great sense of Satisfaction! Finally, we gets to bond together. A real bonding I would called it, and the first ever big risk that I've ever taken in BL!! Haha! To the teachers, we are very sorry for being late, but I assure you, we did have lots of Fun together and we can feel the bonding among us. Thank-you for not scolding us. *wink*" Hehe.

And to all my dear Bridge Leaders, we shall go for this kind of bonding more often alrite? *wink*

Just came back from shopping with my lil sis! Haha. Yeah. I cant believe that I actually went out shopping just with her. A 4 year old kid. Haiz, but you really gotta have loads of patience and endurance when dealing with kids tantrums. We went to Bugis first to get my 'dream cinderella slipper' with the butterfly on it. Been wanting that since ages and only today got the time to went there. Thank god they still have it and thank god again, they had my size. Want to get the same thing for my sis too, but they dont have her size there. Too bad, sweetie. And she was giving me so much of the 'kids attitude'. Luckily received my NDP allowance money yesterday, so I still afford to entertain her. And she keeps on like I want this, I want that, Im thirsty, Im hungry, Im tired, I dont want to go home, and blah, blah, blah... but when she said, "princess... lets go kfc...Im hungry...." I was like patiently telling her, "Im fasting darling.. and dosa tau kalau makan depan orang..." Thnak-god it works and she kept quiet. After buying the shoes, went to This Fashion at Bugis. Want to find something nice and then my eyes laid on to this dress. Beautiful. Even my sis was like smiling and looking at the dress. And know what I did next? To fulfill the temptation, I grab the dress and a matching cardigan to go with it, and then off to the Fitting Room we went. After I put it on, my lil sis was like, "princess ni macam pengantin lah...." Haha. Yeah, it was nice. But the price was nice too. Forty-five bucks. Almost want to buy it, really. But I was thinking, why would I need a dress for? I mean, I dont have a special occasion coming up, and I dont really wear a nice dress to go out with my friends. So even if I bought it, I wont be using it often. So nah, didnt buy it. But now, I wish I bought it somehow. *shrug*

We went to Jurong Point after that to look for her shoes. And John Little was having this Real Hot Sale. Saw a nice shoulder bag and it was pink. It was $10.95 and so I bought it. And then saw this black shoes which I think suits me well to go school. And again, bought it. By then my sis was like, "I want my shoes! I want my shoes!" Urghh. So off we went to Bata, and finally, gets a nice black shoes for her.

Had our first ever Drama workshop just now. It was super cool lah! Fun! I mean although I've attended drama workshop before, but wells, its a good experience to be able to come for more workshops on drama. Oh wells, not that I want to become an actress or something for my career, but I loves drama as a hobby. Sumtymes, it makes u be able to express yourself better. And for the introduction just now, we are suppose to say out our name as well as do an action that describe us. De-ja-vu! It was what I did on my first drama lesson that I've attended few years back. That time I still remember I introduce myself as "Humble Hanis". Haha. But this time round, they asked we to do an action. So I ended up doing so-called a 'cinderella bow' to introduce myself. Haha. Funny. Well, I told myself that I will try to be as spontaneous as possible, but at tymes, I dunnoe why I tends to smile and laugh so much. Hmm. Im gonna have a hard time if they give me a serious role one day. Choy ah. Dun want. Rather they give me a sacrastic role. I got that role before, and wells, Im okay acting that out.

Some of the exercise she asked we to do just now was really interesting. Like for one eg. we have to actually carry our partner! Can you imagine that? Carry your own friend who is like the same weight and height with you, or maybe heavier than you? When she first explained, I actually laughed and thought it was impossible to do! and yeah, if you're wondering, my partner is Aisha. Hehe. Hmm, then, we started the exercise. At first Aisha tried to carry me, (with the techniques given of cuz), but didnt really gets to lift me up from the floor. Second attempt was better and third attempt was much better. At least my feet was a bit off the ground though it was for just a few sec. Then aft few moments, switch. I am supposed to lift Aisha. Gosh. I keep laughing coz I know its very hard for me. Mana tak nya. Beras 5 kilo je si sang puteri ni dah susah nak angkat, ni apa lagi kena angkat orang. Haha. But wells, I did try. And. No. Didnt really manage to lift her up. Just for a split sec. And I let it go. Arms were really aching.

There'll be no workshop next week due to the Deepavali holiday. And so that'll make the next workshop on the following Friday which falls on the 3rd November. Argh!! I hate it. Coz it clash with my Bridge Leaders External Leadership Camp. I really dont know which to go or not to go. I mean I know that 90%, I have to go for the camp coz Im like the President. And it wont look nice if the rest of my Exco can come, but I cant. Well, there's reasons why I dont feel like going for this camp. First, coz my edusave is already sparkling cleaned ever since the Thailand trip. And so if I want to go for this camp, I have to pay like $46.00 in cash which incld the $20 deposits as well. And aside from that, I have to pay additional $20.00 for the workshop coz it have been agreed that if you miss one session, you have to pay $20.00. Haiz. And when I told the teacher bout it, she said, "Go work and earn some money.." Haloo... Excuse me? In the first place, do I even have a job outside?

But part of me really wants to go for the camp, coz I know it'll be much more fun compared to the internal camps we had in school. And its a good time and opportunity to bond with my dear Bridge Leaders.

What should I do?

Okie, here I am updating again. Wells, looks like that I didnt really talk much bout wat happened on first day of sch. Oh well, trust me, nothing interesting. Unless u called getting a nagging from the teacher is cool. Haiz. Yeah, I guess my class did pretty bad for the exams and when my teacher steped in the class, she's been very naggy. Not that I blame her or wateva so. But it just makes me feel bad coz I know I didnt get all A's. And she was saying sumtink like, "For those of you who got C or D, you dont even deserve it at all.." Ouch lah. Thanks lah eh. Hey, at least it is still pass.

Anyways, yesterday there was an impt meeting and rehearsal day for Bridge Leaders who are involved in the Accounting Day. And know what tyme I got home? Almost 10pm. Yeah, we have lots to discuss and time is not kind on us. What's more cant get the key to the cca room coz 'it wasnt there'. And so have to use the Student Hub instead. We left the sch almost 7pm to break-fast outside. Me, Ijah, Siti, Rina, Shuo Ke, Trish and Kit then headed to J8 Long John Silver to eat. We eat and laugh so much! Been quite some time since I laugh like a mad girl. Laugh till there were tears and all. And all thanks to Ijah's story. Haha. Kak, u very funny lah.

Tml there will be a drama workshop. Wonder how it will be like. Hmm, I've went thru drama workshops during my sec sch days and wonder whether it will be the same thing or not. Hopefully something similar coz at least I have an idea what to expect.

I wanna go for a makeover! Haha. Yeah, like, dream-on hanis. But wells, I just loves it when I look nice. Like the saying that say, "Look good, feels good." Hmm, we'll see okie..... Maybe if I cant have that, I'll get something else to pamper myself. *smile*

Gosh. Im so freaking tired ryte now. Feels half-dead. Urghh! Been such a busy days ever since school started. But you know what? I loves my time-table! Its super cool! The only disadvantge is that we have no lunch or break at all from mon to fri. Yeah. Im gonna miss the canteen food! Haha. But its okay. I ends at 11am on monday and 12pm for the rest of the days, except for wed, which ends at 1pm. But yeah, I took Mandarin classes as my elective. Wells, wasnt having the intention to sign up, but when the teacher said it was free, and we got nothing to lose, I decided to give it a try.

First lesson was today. The class was okay lah. Learned some basic chinese greetings and all. Its a 2 hours lesson every week. And its every Tues. Okie, I've been going back home late these few days. You know, reached the house at 6.40pm, and just a few more mins, it was time to break-fast. And I've got loads of work awaits me for the whole of this week and the week after. Yesterday sch ends at 11am, and I reached home at 6.45pm. Haha. Hey, not that I want to. I have SGEM miting which is at 3pm and it ends bout 5.30 pluz. Today sch ends at 12pm, but reached home at 6.30pm. Tml got Accounting Day rehearsal which I know for sure I'll be home only at nite. Yea, gotta break-fast outside I think. Coz we're gotta settle the logistic matter as well. Then comes Thurs, again the SGEM miting which maybe will ends at 5 or 5 pluz. And then comes Friday, got the drama workshop till 4.30pm. Argh! So packed! I just hope my dear mummy will understands coz dun want to get a free lecture from her. I think she know lah, coz everytime I reached home, I'll be like one weak and tired princess, with the sleepy and tired eyes. And hardly talks much too. And when they came back from mosque, I'll be like already lying in my bed. So it shows that I am really tired.

Okay, one last word before I ends this entry.

I.Am.So.Freaking.Tired.

(sigh)

Headache. Urgh. Have been sitting infront of the computer since the last 5 hours! Been doing the proposal for the Accounting Day. Do up the games, manpower list, materials needed, prizes, etc, etc. So much of work! Yesterday, I think its mrs low who called. But I didnt picked up. Afraid surely kena nag again. Haiz. I've just been busy. And I only finish typing the proposal like a minute ago...? and there's still 3 stations blank. I dont have the description to that. Memory Game, Minesweeper and Number Plates. So I've asked Ijah to email it asap. But I understand that she's working. So yeah. To my other dear Excos, well, IF you happened to read this, pls help me. If anyone of you have any of the above-mentioned proposal, pls email me asap at nurhanis_29@hotmail.com. I need to submit the proposal urgently, if not, she's gonna slaughter my head.

Aside from that, I still have to complete the script for Speak Good English Movement. Another headache. But for that, at least I have till Sunday to finish typing it. Next meeting will be on Monday, and I will need to print it for the rest. Hmm, looks like my schedule gonna start to be packed again.

Woke up at 9.05am this morning. Supposely to woke up at 8.30am, but my eyes just refuse to open up. So thought of sleeping for another 10 mins, but ended up slept for another 35 mins. First thing that I did was switched on the comp and go to www.ite.edu.sg. Yeah. Results are out. But my fingers just cant move. I'm so freaking scared to even see my result. And just when I want to key in my user id, my hp rang. It was Ams. And. She was crying.

That's it. I told myself. I dont think I can afford to see my result. I feel sad for her. And Im very scared for myself. She insist that I checked mine immediately, but I told her nicely, I'll call her once Im done. I need time. After a while, I take a deep breathe and type my user id and passwd as fast as my fingers could before I could change my mind again. My heart was beating so fast!

Click, click, click. And there, right infront of my eyes, are all my grades. The first word that came out from my mouth is "Alhamdullilah." Whew!! Thank-God. No F. Passed all the subjects! Even though it was not an excellent ones, but still I am thankful with what I get. The most impt thing is that I passed!

Niwae, will need to go school tml and wed for Mic Studio. I know if Stephanie were to read this, she'll be like.... "If not Bridge Leaders, Mic Stuido.... If not Mic Studio, Bridge Leaders.... Aren't you tired, Hanis..??" Haha. To Stephanie, yes, I am tired. But somehow its FUN! Yeah, I know some ppl will say that Im weird. Oh wells, maybe I am. I mean, as long as I enjoy doing the things that I like to do, then I wouldnt mind at all. And Bridge Leaders and Mic Studio both are my passion. I love them both. Though I know that I am the President of the Bridge Leaders' Club, but I love Mic Studio as much as I love Bridge Leaders. Well, some of them have been asking me the same questions over and over again. "How do you manage your time between Bridge Leaders, Mic Studio and your studies.... What's more you're in Accounting..." Honestly ppl, its not easy. Its hard, yes. Asked my friends. They've seen how much of hard time I've gone thru. Struggling btw 2 BIG ccas and trying very hard to cope with my studies. Its just Urgghhhh...!!! But well, like I said, I have passion for these things, so I gotta endure. Yes. Endure. Anyways, I've only left with just a few more months in that sch. So this is the time to really treasure and enjoy the things that I do. Memories will remain.

Okie, I am the Project Manager, as well as the participant, for the coming Speak Good English Movement. I missed the previous meeting, due to the food poisoning, and currently, I dont really have much idea of what's going on actually. Okie. Be Frank. I dun even know what's the whole thing about actually. So gotta wait for tml and I guess Imran will update me then.

Oh. My. God. You know what? Officially, 2 more days till the result. Arghhh!!!! But wait, it always happened. You dont need to wait too long. Tml, after 8pm, go log in to your Student Portal, and you'll see ur result there. Trust me. It always happens.

Im very scared. Very, very scared. I dont put high hopes, but the least that I hope is to pass all the subjects. Even if it means borderline pass, it doesnt matter. I just dont want, NEVER want to repeat any module. I know what I'l get for Entrepeneur, coz Ms Tan already hint, hint abit. So Im not at all worried for Entrepeneur. But Im very, very scared for my Accounting and Costing. Esp Costing. God, pls help me pass all my subjects.

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